And so the circle turns..

How quickly the focus can change... I don't know if I'm articulate enough to explain the profound way that fate has reminded me that life is a circle.. ( I think one day I'm gonna have to pay Karenna to ghost write my blogs to get the words out better ..)

Since friday - much has happened to change my focus.
My sister & my brand new nephew arrived here over the weekend & there is a real reminder that there is always a New life waiting in the wings, demanding attention & more than able to fill up the space in your heart ...& home!

My waking hours have been filled not with introspection & saddness for others...but a never-ending flurry of activity & noise- & a LOT of STUFF ( gees I forgot how much STUFF new babies need ~lol...)

& time.. they take up allllll your time - this from the woman who sorta didn't quite make it out the door to the gym this AM because spending time with a little person seems to have taken over my whole morning :) Not entirely a bad thing in the big picture I suppose..

So I'll make this quick ,as the boy is waking up from a brief nap... & we're maybe gonna head out for a walk in the sunshine... I'll just say thanks for all your thoughts...I'll have to catch up on your worlds a bit later..
Hope you're all well & continuing to enjoy the "good" momments that life brings

I am :D

Ok.. Big breath..

I'm gonna write this out .. Unfortunately it won't change a thing ..& really wonder if I'm just dragging everyone down into my funk by doing this.. I'm rarely one to write about to much of the 'serious" stuff in my world - because somewhere in my brain I have been taught to "keep those things to myself" that by blabbing about them I'm looking for "oh poor you" that is "selfish" or not "proper"..Great stuff the hard wiring from our upbringing eh?

Ok enough stalling- as I told Suze the other day on the phone when she had the misfortune to ask me "how things are" Do you really wanna know? For you in Blogland.. If not- wander off now - Go find something "cheery" to read!

In the past week in my world a series of things have happened.. One of the girls I work with who has a 5 yr old & has been trying since just told us a week ago that she's Pregnant... Well not anymore. I can't even imagine her pain...
The same day I learned that --I learned that one of the older ladies that works in our dietary ( you know those cute little bustling cheery round ladies) well I had seen her Wednesday serving out the dinner for our pts & apparently Thursday on her days off she had an aneurysm burst & by Friday she was gone.

then to top it off ... Some of you might remember me blogging about a friend of mine I call "Mother May " or "Auntie May".. She was diagnosed with Lung Cancer just mere months ago... Well I got a call from her son while I was at work Mon night & he told me she was in the Hospital & Not doing well- that they had to have her back in there just to manage her pain ; that they had found it was in her bones & they were checking to see if it had traveled to her brain.
So I called one of the other girls I work with & we set up plans to go in & see her
Wed AM.... Paul called me back Tues eve to say she had just died.
Yea just a bit much all at once....
I guess All I can say what has been expressed out here in Blogland by others in times like this.. Hugs your kids, your family & friends . & simply try to enjoy this precious gift we have of "life"

What to say..

Well it's been kinda a difficult week for me...some pretty heavy things goin on .. but I'm getting thru it.
That's why & posted the previous "joke" that my aunt had sent me... how very Ironic that I get told "I'm funny" & it's "my best post ever"..geees Am I really that boring the rest of the time ?
makes ya wonder...
any who here's this then... in keeping with Janel's video.. more people to watch dance! besides, it's on my Ipod & I like it

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A story we might all appreciate! .....Tee hee..

Dear Diary;

For my 40th Birthday this year, my husband (the dear) purchased a
week of personal training at the local gym for me.

Although I am still in great shape since my track and field days
some 25 years ago, I decided it would be a good idea to go ahead and
give it a try.

I called the gym and made my reservations with a personal trainer
named Damon, who identified himself as a 26-year-old aerobics
instructor and model for athletic clothing and swim wear. -(YUMM)

My husband seemed pleased with my enthusiasm to get started!

The gym encouraged me to keep a diary to chart my progress.


Monday;

Started my day at 6:00am. Tough to get out of bed, but found it was
well worth it when I arrived at the health club to find Damon
waiting for me.

He is something of a Greek god - with blond hair , seductive eyes
and a dazzling white smile. Woo Hoo!! Damon gave me a tour and
showed me the machines. He took my pulse after five minutes on
the treadmill and was alarmed that it was so fast, but I attribute
it to standing next to him in his gym top and bulging shorts.

I enjoyed watching the skillful way in which he conducted his
aerobics class after my workout today. Very inspiring. Damon was
encouraging as I did my sit-ups, although my gut was already aching
from holding it in the whole time he was around. This is going to be
a FANTASTIC week!!

Tuesday:

I drank a whole pot of coffee, but I finally made it out the door.
Damon made me lie on my back and push a heavy iron bar into
the air - then he put weights on it! My legs were a little wobbly on
the treadmill, but I made the full mile. Damon's rewarding smile made
it all worthwhile. I feel GREAT!! It's a whole new life for me.

Wednesday:

The only way I can brush my teeth is by lying the toothbrush on the
counter and moving my mouth back and forth over it. I believe I have
a hernia in both pectorals. Driving was OK as long as I didn't try
to steer or stop. I ran over the gym manager in the parking lot.
Damon was impatient with me, insisting that my screams bothered
other club members. His voice is a little too perky for this early
in the morning and when he scolds, he gets this nasally whine that
is VERY annoying. My chest hurt when I got on the treadmill, so
he put me on the stair monster. Why the hell would anyone invent a
machine to simulate an activity rendered obsolete by elevators?
Damon told me it would help me get in shape and enjoy life. He said
some other shit too.

Thursday:

Damon was waiting for me with his vampire-like teeth exposed as his
thin, cruel lips were pulled back in a full snarl. I couldn't help
being a half an hour late; it took me that long to tie my shoes.
Damon took me to work out with dumbbells. When he was not looking,
I ran and hid in the women's change room. He sent Cheryl to find me,
then, as punishment, put me on the rowing machine - which I sank.

Friday:

I hate that bastard Damon more than any human being has ever hated
any other human being in the history of the world. Stupid,
masochistic gym-jock. If there was a part of my body I could move
without unbearable pain, I would beat him with it. He wanted me to
work on my triceps. I don't have any triceps! And if you don't want
dents in the floor,don't hand me the *&%#(#&**!!@*@ barbells or anything
that weighs more than a sandwich. (Which I am sure you learned in the
sadist school you attended and graduated magna cum laude from.)The
treadmill flung me off and I landed on the nutrition advisor. Why
couldn't it have been someone big and soft, like an ice-cream salesman
or a fireman?

Saturday:

Damon left a message on my answering machine in his grating, whining
voice, wondering why I did not show up today. Just hearing him made
me want to smash the machine with my rolling pin. However, I lacked
the strength to even use the TV remote and ended up catching eleven
straight hours of the Weather Channel.

Sunday:

I'm having the Church van pick me up for services today so I can go
and thank GOD that this week is over. I will also pray that next
year my husband(the bastard) will choose a gift for me that is
fun -like a root canal or a pap smear!

No wonder!...

So I have the gall to "wonder" how I manage NOT to do well when we have nights like this!!!
Ok So this eve was a LITTLE over the top even for us! (lol~)-- friends of ours JUST got engaged & Jamie is going to be the best man . Not to mention that Daryll just found out that he's been accepted to the new job he applied for in a town that is 4-5 hours AWAY away from here & he starts NEXT week!!

So we kinda had a big "Congrats & going away Feast"....we all like to Cook so everyone was making SOMETHING ( thank God for having such a big kitchen! )..& we never did sit down -just ended up eating in waves...
Lets see ...
We had Lobster, Dungeoness Crab, King crab, prawns, shrimp, oysters, scallops...& wine we just bottled...OMG!!.. I wonder why we never got to the homemade Caesar salad!!

but I did make the cheese cake out of the EFL cook book!!!!
Bahahaha!! Oh yea - now THAT made it healthy Right??

Can I just title this - *yawn*?

This is gonna a be a fun day - I can tell already... I for some obscure reason I woke up at about 1:30 am & COULD NOT get back to sleep... I dunno maybe it was us going to bed earlier than usual & ummm well being VERY pleasantly exhausted when I did fall asleep at about 10:30-11:00 -- Tee hee ;P
Does this happen to anyone else that sometimes right after.. You fall asleep ...& then wake up a few hours later?? Or am I just weird?

Any who, after lying in bed staring at the ceiling I decide to get up & come down stairs...I started a loaf of bread , cleaned the whole big walk in pantry - mostly cause I got pissy about not being able to find ingredients for the damn bread & then proceeded to catch up on everyone's Blogs...Interesting to see the world of Blends Going UP & DOWN like a teeter totter...VERY nice to see there's more "GOOD" & UPS in people worlds happening right at this moment! :D
Yep this is what I'm doing at 3AM!! Oh yea & throw in snacking - now does that count as yesterday's last meal or today's first?? ~lol

So this morning I'm now staring at my handy bottle of Thermo- whatevers & trying to figure out just how many I'm gonna need to wake my sorry A$$ up enough to go Go GO to the gym!

Wish me luck..... :D

Weekends are dangerous..

Here it is Monday & I'm relieved.. Yea.... WHAT? You say...
Hmmmm well to explain -I'm more than just a little pissed at my self that I yet again let the whole weekend become a series of Free Day moments.
Someone please tell me WTH happens in my brain that says that eating well right up till dinner time means that everything after that is WHOO HOO PARTY time!?! I dunno!... I need to figure out the mental process that goes into this sorta thing if I ever really hope to see decent results- that is the absolute bottom line on this.

I know that this is a pattern I have when I have weekend days off.. Friday I can work-out, be totally ON with eating all day- but then if it's a day off.. Come the eve & we end up "socializing" which usually involves food & drink.. & If I'm off Sat too- well it's the same sorta equation! -Then the hard thing is then Sunday even when I go back to work- I can't seem to get out of the fog & be all gun ho about eating clean- I'd quite honestly hazard to guess that it's some sort of "food induced hangover!!!" cause often I don't really even drink that much if at all ( especially if I had drank the night before~lol) - just the damn rich food!

Now telling me to NOT be sociable isn't gonna work- I'm just not willing to give up everything all the time ..Jamie & I both enjoy cooking & entertaining too much & to be honest with my schedual- getting to relax & "kick back" with friends is an infrequent treat.

Sorry for blithering on about this ... I'm just trying so hard to stay focused & on track this "challenge" .. That feeling like I'm on that slippery slope to Apathy is actually scaring me... I really WANT to do well.. I WANT to really make some changes & look "different" - it's been too long since I've managed to really see anything remarkable ...

Gotta find a way to keep the "damage" to a minimum somehow! *sigh*

Missed YOU all..

Friday was a funny day in my world...our computer was offline for the WHOLE day ..& I realised how much I rely on being able to get on line, look up things or just catch up on the "goings on" in everyone's world - any time I want~ So I can't even imagine going away on an extended vaction-I'd MISS you all too much ~lol
Anywho had a great day...busy, busy since kids have a half day of Fridays & my workout time is shortened -No lollygaging for me! & then we had dentist appointments as well to fit into our timeline & shopping & baseball practice..& on & ON it goes _ oh yea somewhere in there I have to make dinner too!
So it was busy but not so busy that I didn't go find the scale at the gym...
I'm down to 137 :D Yay ME~ So it's nice to find that working at this has Happy resutls!~

Keep up the PMA gang~

Good day!....

Well gang, here we are into week 2 of the Bikini challenge & I'm feeling GOOOOD today! Even after a weekend of eating ...ummm, well ..ah ,bithday food LOL ( I think I had more Pizza over this weekend than I've had in months- simply 'cause it was quick, easy & well frankly portable!! ) I'm think &(HOPE) I'm gonna be down again on weight by the end of the week!

I'm attributing it to "trying" to do T's diet for most of last week & so far all of this one... ( I'm doing a few substitutions - but tracking things on FITDAY) TO be honest this is the first time since last Spring that I've REALLY honestly been eating this clean. Thru the fall & winter,even when I waws eating "good" I got into a habit of telling myself that a low fat chewy granola bar was a good carb choice.... or that whatever everyone else was eating was .."close enough". Not to metion that more often than not my Free day turned into a Free Weekend with WAY too much partaking! ;P ( damn you Stef for telling me just HOW many grams of sugar are in a Vodka Ice!! ~lol)

Anywho this week, I've had my momments where I've been HUNGRY as Jess said...not fun! & gotten pretty damn sick of seeing spinache & frikkin' brocoli at a few points...( shoulda heard me muttering under my breath around work LAST night! ) but doing this even just for the days I work .. I think is doing me good.. I have a feeling if I tried to do this 24/7 I'd turn into a bloody basket case ! I really don't know how Teresa or any one can do this day in & day out for days , weeks, even months on end!! ITS BORING!! bahaha!

Other than obsessing about FOOD I've had a pretty good week been really hitting things hard with my workouts --& really enjoying chatting with Karenna ,Christie,Deb, Lisa & Co in the mornings ( although I'm gonna have to put a time limit on that or do it AFTER I go to the gym - cause otherwise I'm running out of day somehow before I know it! Tee hee! )

I also spoke a couple times today to Suzanne, who I've been worrying about & she's doing ok - they're ruling all the Yucky things out & hopefully it will turn out to be something fairly straightforward to deal with .. but that's her story to tell when the time comes .. In the mean time I'm just glad our dear Blend is doin ok & am once again reminded just how thankful I myself am for all of you out there-- & all the support that we give & get from one another!


Happy Wedsday ALL

**BIG HUGS**

What did I do all Weekend you ask???

Well it was a whirlwind... being that my schedual always changes & I work 3 days on then 3 days off... weekends are a REAL premium! This weekend we had friends to see before they leave to work away for a YEAR .. a soccer windup party & FINALLY my darling Daughter's Birthday PARTIES...Yes 2...you have to have the family one too ya know!

Here's some pics from the girls party ... we made it a whole "Men IN Black" Theme party starting with invitations in manila envelopes with TOP SECRET on them & invitations that had to be read using a mirror ( ya shoulda seen me trying to write THAT ~lol) When the girls got to the house - Jamie & I, who were dressed head to toe in black with sunglasses on, welcomed them to "Headquarters" & handed them their OWN "uniform" a G.I.B. t- shirt Jess & I had made up with Hot pink lettering on the backs (Girls In Black instead of MEN)
We did pizza & watched the M.I.B. movie & them took them to the local Mall for their "Training Assignment" which was a series of tasks in the Mall..( finding & buying sunglasses at the dollar store .. finding Quotes in the GNC store ect... They also had to take polaroid pictures of anyone they thought MIGHT be a possible ALIEN... Tee hee Now that was Fun! -- & the stir it caused in the Mall was Hilarious! Yep- IT was a BLAST they all had such a great time.. it was well worth all the effort & insanity!

Well THAT was quite the day!

So I can honestly say .. it's been a busy day but a FANTATIC one!

Got up this am & started getting ready for the gym ..checked in on my Messengers..Yes I have 2 runnng right now which may yet cause my poor little dinosaur
of a computer to give up & Die!
- But hey for now it's worth it! I got to "talk" to Goddessa & Deb which was a great pep inducer!! WHHHOOO HOOO! GO Bikini Challenge Girls! :D
& so off to the gym I went for a WHACK of cardio ..Almost an hour including a HIIT in the middle just for fun! ( geees those make me wanna barf some times!!! - but it's a good barf feeling right? ~lol - because then I know that I'm doing it right & working real hard --right?? ;)

Then back home to find my Dad cutting down the last of the nasty blackbery brambles that are out the back of our yard ( YAY dad!!!) Managed to get some chicken in the oven while I chatted with him... all the while just wanting to climb into a HOT shower! *sigh* Oh well finally he left & after a now much too short shower it was pack up for work & off to the dentist!!!

Oh fun!!! :P NO really, actually it was kinda awesome..For starters- NO cavities Yay me! & second the CDA there is the wife of one of my kids teachers so we got to talking..( ok she talked - I mummbled ~lol~). good to catch up on all the the gossip! ( tee hee) & then the biggest treat was in our talking about my rushed day & how I came to show up with soaking we hair... She says "so I'm guessing with all the fitness stuff You're an instructor as well" ...

UMMMMM no!- just a nurse.. was my response.. to which she sorta shruged & said "Oh ... I just thought from talking to you before & all that you knew..& well You just LOOK like one"

Talk about making my day!!!

OH.. & did I mention that I'm back down to 138?? I weighed at the gym ... this Am - So I guess the "bloat" is leaving... another BIG YAY!
.. & now I'm at work eating chicken & "grass" as my co worker like to tease me when I'm eating LOTS of veggies...mostly raw!! lol

Yep HAPPPY girl today... :D

OK at the request of a few of you...

HOW TO SPEAK ABOUT MEN AND BE POLITICALLY CORRECT:

1. He does not have a "BEER GUT" - He has developed a "LIQUID GRAIN
STORAGE
FACILITY."

2. He is not a "BAD DANCER" - he is "OVERLY CAUCASIAN."

3. He does not "GET LOST ALL THE TIME" - He "INVESTIGATES ALTERNATIVE
DESTINATIONS."

4. He is not "BALDING" - He is in "FOLLICLE REGRESSION."

5. He is not a "CRADLE ROBBER" - He prefers "GENERATIONAL DIFFERENTIAL
RELATIONSHIPS."

6. He does not get "FALLING DOWN DRUNK" - He becomes "ACCIDENTALLY
HORIZONTAL."

7. He does not act like a "TOTAL ASS" - He develops a case of
"RECTAL-CRANIAL INVERSION."

8. He is not a "MALE CHAUVINIST PIG" - he has "SWINE EMPATHY."

9. He is not afraid of "COMMITMENT" - He is "RELATIONSHIP CHALLENGED."

10. He is not "HORNY" - He is "SEXUALLY FOCUSED."

11. Its not his "CRACK" you see hanging out of his pants - It's "REAR
CLEAVAGE."

My favourite is #7.

Some thoughts for the New week..

HOW TO SPEAK ABOUT WOMEN AND BE POLITICALLY CORRECT:

1. She is not a "BABE" or a "CHICK"- She is a "BREASTED AMERICAN."

2. She is not a "SCREAMER" or a "MOANER"- She is "VOCALLY APPRECIATIVE."

3. She is not "EASY" - She is "HORIZONTALLY ACCESSIBLE."

4. She is not a "DUMB BLONDE" - She is a "LIGHT-HAIRED DETOUR OFF THE
INFORMATION SUPERHIGHWAY."

5. She has not "BEEN AROUND" - She is a "PREVIOUSLY-ENJOYED COMPANION."

6. She is not an "AIRHEAD" - She is "REALITY IMPAIRED."

7. She does not get "DRUNK" or "TIPSY" - She gets "CHEMICALLY
INCONVENIENCED."

8. She does not have "BREAST IMPLANTS" - She is "MEDICALLY ENHANCED."

9. She does not "NAG" you - She becomes "VERBALLY REPETITIVE."

10. She is not a "TRAMP" - She is "SEXUALLY EXTROVERTED."

11. She does not have "MAJOR LEAGUE HOOTERS" - She is "PECTORALLY
SUPERIOR."

12. She is not a "TWO-BIT HOOKER" - She is a "LOW COST PROVIDER."


well there ya go hope you enjoy them as much as I did! :P

OK... Here ya go!

So Yes-FINALLY I got the pics from my Sister ( we took mostly with her camera & I've been waiting alllll week for her to send me some pics so I can show you!)& then I've spent 2 frikkin days trying to upload them- with NO luck!- they are in the wrong format( anyone know how to convert a "bitmap to a Jpeg?? ) Yea me neither! needless to say& I'm too dumb to know any better! yes I know it's a been a long wait but I had to wait for her first! I dunno she gave me some lame excuse about looking after a new baby & not having time to get on the computer! ~lol So with out any further ado presenting-- MY Nephew! these are a few that we took-- I still have to get the others.......

Leland was born on Jan 2nd making him just over 10 weeks now -wow where did the time go? hmmmmm - something about a Challenge comes to mind... ~lol~

Anways the trip was Great we really had a wonderful time... & I miss My sister like crazy already...*sigh* It is MUCH colder in Alberta than here in BC that's for sure! & It snowed LOTS while we were there- FUN for the kids but made me nervous that we'd have a hard time with the flights on the way home.. but we did fine :)
We even fit in a day to West Edmonton Mall..a really COOOL mall with everything from a huge Waterslide park to a Seal show & bumper boats to a movie theater with an amazing Huge animatronic dragon to an Amusement park INSIDE it! we spent the day there as it was the kids Chrsitmas pressie from Cindy & Billy to have a family pass there for the day! ( yea we WERE supposed to be out there for Christmas time 'memeber?? ) Oh well it was Very, Very neat if you ever get the chance to go there~!

Aaaaand again we're off !

Geees, it seems we don't do anything for months & months -- then all of a sudden we're not home for two seconds & we're gonna be gone again!

I guess part of it is that it's Spring Break up here & were feeling like everything has to be crammed into a very short time!
Soooooo I've spent the week doing laundry ,running around doing errands, cleaning the motorhome to give it back to my father-in law & doing stuff with the kids---PHEW--- ( we're just not going into how many workouts I missed- ok?! )

& Now we're going to bed to get up for a 6AM flight out to FINALLY see my sister & the new baby!!!! YAY!!!!!
So again... Have wonderful weekend...- we're not back till late Monday night..
I'll have LOTS more pics - but definitely NOT hot tubs ones!!! they'll be all of BABY!!
( sorry bout all the exclamation points every where...I'm a little wound up apparently! ~LOL~)

Weekends with friends, Blends & more!

Where do I start with all of this??
Well it's Monday morning & Jamie & I got back late last night from the most AMAZING weekend !

If meeting all you Blends can be this much fun -I vote we all get on this NOW!
I feel like I'm some sorta new convert...trying to explain how Wonderful a new way of life is & convince you all to TRY it! ~lol

I'll just give you the short version of this ...'cause I know as soon as Stef gets to her Dad's tonight, she'll be wanting to share..& I don't wanna hog all the fun!
I can't say it enough that she & Russ are just as wonderful & special as you might imagine- we had such a great time,that I really was sad we had to leave to come home last night!

I knew things were in for a good time when we got to the meeting place Sat AM & any worries I might have had about not being able to recognize Stef were immediately washed away, & we pretty much ran across the concourse area to greet each other with a big hug!

After a brief introduction between Jamie & Russ the 4 of us were up the Moutain for the first of many hours of skiing adventures & A LOT of talking...It's amazing to feel like you're with a long lost friend who you've been separated from for some silly reason!
Straight off the top, I have to say both She & Russ are great skiers & I being NOT such a fantastic skier was thankful for them waiting for me constantly & watching me learn new things.. ( thanks again you guys! )---But I Still HATE MOGULS!! ;P Bahahahaha!!!

& it was great that Jamie & Russ seemed to click immediately & got on like gang busters & up on the mountain are like two big kids who wanna play ALLLLL day until someone MAKES them come in! ~lol
& the APRES ( after) Ski time.... Well now THAT was a Blast! Hot tubs, good times good company & more teaching..This time Stef & Russ will tell you it was me teaching Stef a bad new word...SQUISHEES.. tee hee!!!

We definitely had a VERY GOOD evening :D- even hooked up for dinner with another couple we met in the Hot tub- who we had to explain to several time that we all hadn't been friends for YEARS ~lol

Sunday was yet another picture perfect day on the slopes!-- Oh yea whooo hoo very Lucky us!
It really is so beautiful & breath taking up there- ( Stef has TONES of pics so I'll let her show you them all) ... In the mean time I'll post this one of the four of us!

Needless to say-I'll have many many fond memories of this past weekend & look forward to the next time!... any one wanna join us for NEXT year?? :)

Very Quickly...

Well I've been a good Mommy again ~lol ..in between apcking I've watched the play AGAIN last night & my son Steven"s presetation in his class today ( very cute )& everyone keeps telling me he'd make great actor..NO my 7 yr is NOT shy! mind niether of them are! *sigh* I'm gonna miss them-------
but I'm VERY excited as we're just out the door to head up for a 3hr (?) drive to see STEF & RUSS! :D
Did I mention that it flippin SNOWED here yesterday & last night??? akkkk ...wish us all luck in getting there!!

Have a great weekend ALL!!

Do I win Mom of the year??

Just got back from the school & have tucked kids into bed.. have been a good girl & entered all my food in Fitday... NOW I finally to tell you about the thrilling adventures I've gotten my self into..

My daughter Jessica, is singing in the choir in the production of "Joseph & the Amazing Technicolour Dreamcoat" ( who made that damn title anyways?- it's a bitch to type when you're tired! ~lol) & they,for whatever reason they have decided to do -not one , not two, but FOUR performances this week! So I being the good Mommy I am -went yesterday afternoon( then had to run off to put in an eight hour shift.) Bought tickets for her Dad & his girlfriend to go last night ( YES I bought them... why - I don't know- except I have very nice manners some times --Bllaaa )- oh well he'll pay me back but anywho.. So I got to do all my shopping today do running around for activities & then Go again tonight (Yippee!) & then I get to go AGAIN on Thursday for the closing night ( couldn't miss the closing now could I??...& I get to take My PARENTS- who are the most particular folks you'll ever meet..they'll probably want to go 2 hours early to get the BEST seats! akkkk!
Now bear in mind this is NOT a fancy production .. we ain't on Broadway now kids.. heck this isn't even a High School Production...this is Elementary School people!!...The Star is 12 yrs old at best!!. they are singing along with the soundtrack !!- all be it with the voices very low in the back ground.. but I have to go ...I have to watch her in the choir ..singing her heart out, Looking so intense ( or maybe that's just abject terror 'cause I'm waving at her from the front row! ~lol
I dunno...I just know that I love my daughter very much- & as Lori might appreciate.."I just don't wanna miss a thing!"

On with the show!

Well it's Friday ..it's Sunny & I've decided to hang up my cape ( thanks Dub..how you KNEW I was saving the world..I don't know...)

So I've done all I can about..well- everything else for the momment..& I've decided to get back to the project at hand...ummm ME! ;)
So in the past 2 days I've been on track with eating& workouts (Things weren't totally horrid early this week ..just NOT really "on" & franky I missed some w/o's ( being exhausted beyond repair does that! )soooooo...Yesterday I came home from the gym & re read BFFM - good book - great for incentive! & have decided to enter all my food in Fitday to track thing for the month of March - which I intend to do!( that whole self promise thing... ;)
In general I feel a lot more focused & able to cope... Yay me!. I just hope it lasts!! I know-- I seem to get all hyped & GO GO mode about things ..& then the world seems to derail me--Hmmmm.. does anyone have any sure fire ways to STAY on track?...

I think what I really need is a flippin training partner!...someone to have to stay accountable to...someone to encourage me to push myself to go that extra distance. Somehow when it's just me .. I can talk myself outta pretty much anything!
:P
I guess the truth of it is I'm just really missing having someone else to workout with right now.. My girlfriend who I used to run with & workout sometimes with is working a "normal" dayshift type job right now which is wonderful for her... but needless to say we're lucky to hook up for a run on a weekend morning every several weeks at best!
well 'nuff of that.. for now I'll keep on keepin on... try to stay as focused as I can & really Kick butt for these next few weeks!

In other news but somewhat related...I can't decide if I'm more excited or nervous about meeting Stef & Russ to go skiing next weekend.
I'm thrilled to be meeting one of you Blends ( finally!!)~lol Ya see, despite many phone calls Suzanne & I STILL haven't manged to arrange our scheduals to hook up!-something about kids, work & her leaving the country every week or so -keeps getting in the way! ;)
So back to Stef & Russ ... I'm very excited - I think it's going to be lots of fun!...but nervous since she & Russ are the original "Power Couple" of BFL ...& I kinda feel like a bit of a shlep ...You know--that whole "Wayne's World thing..."we're not worthy !...we're not worthy!!" ;P

Oh well-whatdaya do?? Me-I'll go with the excitement & see if working my A@#$ off all week makes me feel any better about myself!

Happy Friday all!

why...

when I feel stretched this thin ... the mirror doesn't seem to see it?...

**sigh**