Something for a Sunday morning..

Nevermind who it's by ... just listen to the Lyrics... pretty powerful message from a "teeny bopper" I 've had this stuck in my head this weekend after singing this with the kids on the karaokee... nice thoughts... It's a new day..a new week.. Let's GO!

"forget about the reasons why you can't in life..." I like that! ;)


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hmmm no good!

I put a silly video for you guys... I thought it might be fun! but I came back to look at it & it's mucked up my whole blog...how come??? I took it off for now until someone can tell me how to put in on without buggering the whole page!

Haruuuuuuumph~~ LOL that's me pouting~

Does any one know...

How to get the "most recent updated time" to show up when you scroll down the list of people that you have links to???

Or better yet does anyone even know WHAT I'm on about!!!
I'm quite sure I saw this on someone's blog & it looked reallllly cool! ( Of course now do you think I remember WHO - no that would be useful!! ) aaaak! It would save me clicking back & forth & back & forth trying to remember who I've checked in on & who I've missed ...Especially when I'm at work here & I get called away from the 'puter to go do stuff with patients ( yea I know how RUDE Eh?? ~loL~

any who if anyone can help out it would be VERY appreciated!!!

Thanks gang!

& WELCOME ROD to our little blogging community!! ;)

he's on MY list over here.................................> :)

Something a little more cheery!

--this is partly to change the subject so to speak.. & partly since I saw Janel's pics of her & her Hubby.
& mostly because I've realized I've never shown you any pics of My Jamie -someone you get to hear about on a rather regular basis! ~lol
So here's a pic of us... My Jamie & me :)

Lots on my mind..

Today I did NOT do my work out .. geee what a way to start my blog eh??
Well what I did do is spend my morning baking bread, making a couple of big lasagnes & generally thinking about life. When I have things on my mind cooking is thereaputic for me.. sometimes I wish I could just be happy as some Jolly round mother earth type & be done with it! settle into that as a way of life!

Anyways..what I've been thinking about is one of my fellow nurses, who I lovingly call "mother May" as she is older that MY mom. She is a sweet english lady who has had more than her share of life tribulations.. she left her family & job as a young nurse & midwife in England at her husbands request came to Canada bore & raised 2 kids.. reaentered the nursing field.. where her Husband found the first of several "other women" ( oh lovely eh?) well needless to say they split & she continued to raise kids. Her daugther went thru the usual teen rembelion yrs ,& son followed right after .. but took a bit of a bad turm & ended up hooked on heroin._ scary stuff to say the least.. In the past several yrs that I've know her I've watched & gone thru this headache & heartache with her while she talked & smoked ..I listened.

Two yrs ago a she had a fall & broke her leg ..I did what I could & took home made things to work for her son to pick up when he picked up paper work.. he by this time was doing better.. on the methadone but having a hard go at times .. he decides I'm a good listner..& talks to me when he comes.. Last yr she had bad fall & ended up in the hospital again where she damn close to died because they gave her too much Ativan( because son told them she was a bit of a "drinker' - worried about possible DT's - well she had a reaction.but the Powers that Be sent her back ..she Decided then & there that she'd been given a sign..no more smoking or drinking for Mother!
So again I ended up baking & talking to her son... Now apparently he's doing really well recently off every thing ..going to NA & even working ..still staying with Mother .. who's the one person who has pulled him out & will forgive him every thing whatever cost to herself. Life is going on..but her health has taken a turn- she went in to hospital this past week because she's been having trouble breathing well they did some test & then ended up having to aspirate almost 2 liters of fluid off her lungs..not good!. The worse part is that in the fluid there was blood.. indicating Cancer. Oh joy.. needless to say I was Paul ( her son's) first choice of who to call .. we talked & the next night he called me back again at work ... yep confirmed by further tests...Cancer.. & it's not only in both lungs .. but in the pancrease & lymph ...NOT good at all....
They've sent her home.. the fluid is eased for the momment.. she has her handy dandy pain killers & a set of appointments to see oncologists & start chemo... but they have essentialy told her to get things in order we're looking at a possible 6 month timeline.
So for now I cook.. I bake, ...because realistically ...what else can I do?

Waddaya think ?

Well Suzanne this is for you! I think it makes me sound scarier than I am when I'm Upset.... I'm NOT tempramental.

Your Hidden Talent

You are a great communicator. You have a real way with words. You're never at a loss to explain what you mean or how you feel. People find it easy to empathize with you, no matter what your situation. When you're up, you make everyone happy. But when you're down, everyone suffers.

What's Your Hidden Talent?

..I'm NOT! No really...but Don't ask Jamie ok? ;)

Better day all around!...

Well today has been an improvement over yesterday... I decided to get off my sorry butt & quit being a colosal wimp! Getting pissed at myself isn't goin to change anything--Life only moves forward!
Hmmmmm there's something in that.. Now if I could remember that all the time it would be Great!

Anywho hit the Gym first thing this Am had a fantastic warm up cardio that turned into a HIIT by the middle of things..then headed down the stairs ( yes- the changeroom & Cardio is Upstairs --sometimes I think for entertainment value ! ~Lol) Got to the leg room & blasted through a great LBWO!!! WHOOOOO HOOOO

then home, had a chat with Suzanne..:) always nice to yack about..well pretty much everything!-- from her wonderful weekend..(Congrats again you two!!!) to all the recent Tracker junk..I'm not going there..I'm talking about GOOD things now...LOL!


& then yacked on the puter for a bit to my sis :) & Crissy -who I talk with almost daily ! wrote a couple emails ..tried to post some blog responses & decided the Gods were saying "get in the shower you twit!!"

Then I got to pack up for WORK --yep work --Lucky me it's Valentines & I'm at work!

Welllllll I got a very nice special suprise...

Jamie came in with Japanese food ( ummmm yes I know that was NOT authorised! LOL extra cardio for me tomorrow! )
& he brough me an amazing arrangement of my favourite flowers fresias & lillies!! The whole nursing office smell absolutely HEAVENLY even as I type!

& you have to understand that he's never been a big fan of Valentines... one too many demading girlfriends in his past that EXPEXTED everything.. :( so I've always kept it pretty low key.. we don't need ONE day to tell us that we love each other...we frankly do that EVERY day ! But a surprise ...well that is always wonderful - & to get to see him when I have to work..that is a treat! :)


Yes I think I am a very lucky girl... & very thankful for all the good things & good people in my world!


Soooo to all of you my lovely Blends....MMMMMMMMMMUUUUUUUUAAAAAH! :)

Let's play a game..

It's called the "FUN & not so FUN of losing the same 5-10 pounds over & over"!!!

Oh yippeeeeee doesn't THAT sound like a THRILLING game???
C'mon..I know you wanna join in on it & write down all the neeto peachy keeno pro's & con's list!!!

Alrighty..PRO's

well week six is not weird or strange...in fact you've seen that # several times.. having gotten to about week 7-8 on a few of my unfininshed challenges ..hey week 6 is REALLY familar!

the changes that you see & feel - you know- the subtle loss of Ta-ta's is now comforting & not frightening

the numbers on the scale..you know they are going to come to a screeching halt & drive you insane for at least a week or so

the stats..hey couldn't you just cut & paste them from one challenge to the next?? saving time & valuable energy?!

new Clothing shopping??-- oh no..not an issue hell there's clothes that should be just sectioned off into FAT( aka elastic-ville) Middleground..(ok fine you get buttons now - but don't get too damn cocky girl ) & YA FRIKIN RIGHT! ( the things you buy thinking that you'll get down to- & never actually do!..



OK nuff of that now the CONS...

well for starters the general frustration & disgust with yourself that you repeat this damn cyle OVER & OVER...

the temptation to just say forget this ... why bother...

the self analysing that seems to get nowhere except to the conclusion that you don't have the self disipline to push yourself to the limits

the wondering why you seem to get let life get in the way of what you see as your ultimate goals...

the gnawing self doubt as to whether those goals could EVER be attainable...

ok I'm stopping-- this is just running off from being droll & witty into the depressing ...sorry!




OK well needless to say I'm frustrated & a Little sarcastic right now.---ok maybe just a bit more than a little.( see Tracey..I toldja in my secret heart I'd fit in with those on your other site!)

Any who---gotta go get kids to catcha all later

Moving on....

Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy: Your propensity for monogamy is medium. In general, you prefer to have only one love interest. But it's hard for you to stay devoted for too long! There's too much eye candy to keep you from wandering. Experience Level: Your experience level is high. You've loved, lost, and loved again. You have had a wide range of love experiences. And when the real thing comes along, you know it! Dominance: Your dominance is low. This doesn't mean you're a doormat, just balanced. You know a relationship is not about getting your way. And you love to give your sweetie a lot of freedom. Cynicism: Your cynicism is low. You are an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance. No matter how many times you've been hurt - you're never bitter. You believe in one true love, your perfect soulmate. And if you haven't found true love yet, you know you will soon. Independence: Your independence is low. This doesn't mean you're dependent in relationships.. It does mean that you don't have any problem sharing your life. In your opinion, the best part of being in love is being together.

The Five Variable Love Test

OK I don't agree with the first one... I"m decided settled & pathetically monogamous!!! ...I guess being happy witll do that to ya eh?

Not to say I don't LIKE eye candy ... but I'm sure not gonna do anything about it anymore! ~lol

Geeeeee now THAT was fun!.....NOT

For those of you that missed the fun there was a bunch af well to put it mildly ...f#$% 'in Garbage goin on at Tracker today .
. I missed the begining since I was at work..& amazingly ...working! Until my dinner break I was blissfully unaware that a bunch of Magpies ..with new names no less.. had decided that thing were too damn nice & pleasant around there I guess...

I'm tired now from spending most of my free moments this eve on the damn computer burying the mess... Really there is no other good way to deal with this sort of thing... trying to retaliate just stirs it up even more & frankly gives them "airtime" they don't deserve!..Besides..I just couldn't leave things knowing that some poor "new kids" could walk in & step in that!

So I wanna say a BIG thanks to Jess ,Tracey, Janel & Christie (& Rod..even tho I don't think he blogs! ~lol) & anyone else who helped clean up ...if I forgot you ..My sincier appologies... it's flippin late ...& I really should be in bed!!!

The only good thing...is not leaving the nursing office except to check on pts... I didn't eat any CRAP!!! & there was a BIG chocolate pie in the fridge! LMAO...

ok..I'm really over tired.. ;)

Lost in Translation...

Well I had an awesome workout this AM..& I do mean I was rockin & feeling majorly pumped!! I was feelin like Zena Warrior Princess!!! whooo hooo!!

OK maybe a bit too much cafeine in my veins..& maybe it was just the army green t-shirt & Sunshine that had me hyped!!
Whatever it was I had this great grand idea to come home & take some pics of my arms...which I'm liking today..I'm having a day where I feel I can embrace my muscularity ..instead of wishing that I were more slim & petite. So I figured better enjoy it while it lasts!
All I've managed to do in the hour I've been home is take some really BAD pictures!!! Damn I suck at this !! LMAO!!
Oh Man...taking pics while trying to pose.. is just retarded!!! there has GOT to be better way to try to show you what I see... I think I can see some real definition happening in my biceps...& I wanna show you what I'm happy about..:) How can it be this difficult??

Oh welll...here ya go... one slightly cockeyed, & rather messy looking girl ( told ya I don't go for the glamor look now didn't I ?) But I'm happy ..& swiftly on my way to tired now from a good workout! Hope you're all havin a good one too!

Better than flowers...

I got a very neat surprise today..& one I wouldn't have expected in a million yrs!

I've had a kinda rough week.. ( hence the blog filler tests.. ;) when I'm in a down mood I don't feel I should be laying it on you all... & really it's all pretty mundane stuff- nothing I can change or ask for advise about ..just get thru.

Any who I was thinking earlier that I was having a pretty good day & I should write SOMETHING.. but really what the heck is in my life of any excitement?? I mean I'm not talented enough to write thought provoking stuff like K.. & I'm not in the thro's of new Love like Jess & Bev.. I'm not going anywhere interesting having great amazing #s in my workouts like most of you , my kids are doing fine.. & Frankly I could never top Tracey for pure shock value ! I could go on & on listing all the interesting things going on in everyones world... some difficult & heart wrenching..christie I hope u find your answers..& Kim I hope she finds her peace.Some are exciting like Kana & casey & the others that are Melting away.. it's really contagieous excitement ...or The ongoing saga of Dub, Suzanne & the cross continental love story they 've let us be part of!

On & on the list goes...really , I said it before ..I keep closer tabs on you all than some members of my family! & when I wanna share stuff with you ..I don't wanna bore you to tears...

I was racking my brain trying to come up with something happy & uplifting to share since I was in a good mood...but nothing was quite "it" ...

So I decided once I got to work I'd pop into Tracker...see how the world was around there.. I now I don;t spend half the time there that I used to... between Life & checking blogs I just don't have as much time!
For whatever reason ..I decided to wander into the top 20 list.. don't usually go looking there, mostly just cruise the forums & check out the newest profiles & changes....
Well to my shock..( & I do mean shock ..I yelled WHAT??? right here in the nursing office...oops! ;)

MY NAME IS ON THE LIST!!!!

I have NO idea how it got there... I really don't get it... I can see the others that are doing really well...or those that have had obvious great Challenges...& now that I think of it ...most of you ,are or have been on there..which is very cool I realy am excited to see my "blends" getting the recognition they deserve!!

But never did I expect to see myself there!!!
Even last yr at my best I was "ok" but nothing "WOW" I gotta vote on that...
& NOW...akkkkk all I have to look at this year is post X-mas "I know where all the Goodies went" blobby Girl!!

So I just wanted to share this bit of very NEAT news!! & I've spent the rest of my free time tonight "paying if forward" in the beginners section..& sending PM's .... something I've gotten away from in between being busy & feeling kinda down..

I still have NO idea who or how...but I'm really thrilled mostly that it reminded me to keep on pushing & striving to be better..& to really put into practice Bill's idea of reciprocity!! Giving back...one of the things that makes me truly HAPPY!!
Hmmm maybe that's fate having a hand in things... who knows eh?


Have a great week end all!

Something cute & mindless..No more colour tests!

Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will have a few true loves. You've been deeply wounded in the past, and you're still recovering from that hurt. You expect a lot from your lover - you want the full package. You tend to be very picky. In fights, you love to debate and defend yourself. You logic prevails - or at least you'd like to think so. Break-ups can be painful for you, but you never show it. You hold your head high.

Your Love Life Secrets, Revealed