Yay Wednesday!! Huh?

Ok.. So I'm a little whacked & being excited about Wednesday is weird I know!
But.. I've managed 3 whole days in a row of clean eating,lots of water..& really Great workouts! Looking forward to maybe SEEING some changes by the end of this week!~

I know that sounds pretty lame -comparatively.. But with everything that's been going on lately- that seems like a wonderful accomplishment~ lol
I am feeling WAY good , the sun is out & I actually learned something new today. I like days like that . What I learned is that I needed to correct my form to my own body mechanics on my hack squats to NOT hurt my knees
Again - not earth shattering but neat to learn something new :D I've been slogging along doing weights & such for so many years & even with all the info I've stuffed into my brain-it's interesting to revisit FORM & have the trainer really help me to focus on what I need to do for MY body. The stuff Janel was talking about going thru things with a trainer certainly came to mind!
Anywho I just wanted to say a quick HI & let you know I'm still hard at things & have lots of happy energy... Wanna borrow any?? LOL

hmmmmm guess I'll check in later & see how everyone is & send this wherever it's needed :D

Take care all :D

Ok on to something new already!

Ok I'm getting bored of looking at all my posts about everyone being sick- So I suspect you all might be too... mind you that is if you're not too busy having a FUN weekend, being that most of you below the border are on a HOLIDAY day! hope everyone had a good weekend regardless..

Ok enough about that already too~ Apparently I'm in a rather restless mood...

I don't know if it's that I've been housebound for what seems like forever -or that I've been stuck at work the past couple of eves when I'd MUCH rather be out doing something.. ANYTHING !

Or maybe it's just that I feel like I've been away from school -so to speak as far as the whole working out / eating well thing is concerned & part of me really feels miserable about the fact that I seem to have gotten NOTHING done in ages.. & I'm tired of hearing my own "excuses" & "reasons" & I NEED & WANT to do something serious about it.

For a start- today I hit the Gym & had a great workout & so far have eaten really well..
gee whooo hooo one day...ok enough with the Sarcasm...
but seriously- I really wanna STAY on track... & MAKE some real changes-instead of just watching everyone else make changes.. yea -You Jim..& Stef & Lori just to name the few I can think of that I've seen FABULOUS pics of in the past few days! Rotters- (Love YOU!) But talk about incentive & inspiration!

I do-I really wanna stay focused & get somewhere!

Will you guys help me do that?? ..please?

Exhausted...

This truly has been the week from hell.. First Me sick then Jess & Jamie... & of course my worst fear was that Steven would be next ..
So I postponed any birthday plans for him friends or family ( We always do his the week after the holiday weekend - where his b-day usually is.)

Today he was fine in the AM- so off we went for FUN day - not "Sports Day" - we don't do "competitive" any more now folks things are all "PC" now doncha know!~
Any who .. Got home at noon Jess had gone for the half day they have on Fridays as she felt ok..
Steven was still feeling good & Mommy feeling guilty for canceling all B-day plans took us down to Vancouver to Science World for a fun play afternoon. :D

Jamie was just coming to meet us there at 5 when it closed & we were gonna go for dinner when the boy announces "his tummy hurts"...AKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!

Yep ... Tried to head home .. Made it not even part way & had to pull over.. Pooor baby boy..back in the car with a bag.. ( not glamorous but works)
then raced the rest.. & Now at 1 AM he's finally sleeping on the couch & I'm hoping the worst is over,,, Gods I'm tired.
This Norwalk virus is horrible... I really hope none of you have to suffer through this...

I thought I'd take a break & come see how everyone's doin.. & I've decided rather quickly -I'm too exhausted to read or comment properly so I'm gonna go lie down.. I never did sleep the other day so my sleep quota for the week is NOT good.

Maybe tomorrow..
Take care all..

Be careful what you wish for..

Well in a warped sorta way I think I've brought this all on myself... Remember I was bemoaning the fact that Jamie was losing weight because He was sick with the flu??

Yea well that was a BAD idea! Monday was the Stat holiday for us up here & I was set to work it... Woke up feelin kinda iffy but thought it was just that I hadn't eaten since early the eve before... Well by Mid morn that was NOT the case! OH man I have never been that sick in all my life!! I'll spare you the details cause I know not everyone in like those of us in the medical profession & finds THAT sort of thing "interesting" ... or even mildly "funny" . Well at least in a very pathetic way looking back objectively after the fact! - I put off calling in sick until the last possible time..Since it WAS a Stat &that is GOOD $$ you know! ~lol.... Yea nice very quick phone call from the bathroom floor!! GOOD grief how ridiculous is that ?? Like I said...Funny AFTER the fact!

Any who so needless to say yesterday was pretty much a write off as well - spent eating gravol & working my way back up from water to Gatoraid to toast.. whoo hoo!

Today I actually felt pretty ok... So I hit the gym ..& haven't spent the whole day trying to "hold down" the couch! I actually got the house in some sort of order & a bit of laundry done- but I have yet to catch up on you all so I hope you're all well... Hopefully tomorrow ...

Gotta say- I'm glad we keep telling each other this fitness thing is FOR LIFE - cause at the rate things in my world keep getting off track-- It's gonna take me that long to ever get a solid 12 weeks in a row done again! ~LOL..
OH well ... I'm wandering along doing my new program "twist" & we'll see where I am come the end of June regardless..

But umm hey- I did lose wt this week... Just NOT a fun or recommended way to do it!

What a week..

Well my sis is gone .. That was a whirl wind adventure of getting her to the plane... Baby & all! & after that - I've had a kick ass week at the Gym & with awesome eating ...But I feel guiltily as He##... As my poor darling Jamie has had a horrible bout of the flu...ALL week it's been absolutely horrid... He's had a terrible time off it & still isn't well.. He's had unreal fevers & CAN"T eat ....I wish!! ~lol..
I was all psyched to take pics when I got home from the Gym yesterday.. I was feeling all happy & fit -- but I got home to my Jamie out trying to mow the back 40 as we call it... & he was SPACE cadet..!!
So I took over & proceeded to do work out there until I had to go get kids..& then with the kids ( that were out at noon) until we took them for a Treat LUNCH/Dinner at 4:00- after we were done~! SoOOOOO No pics...

& then today Steven turned 8.... My little baby boy is 8 ,,,, how did that happen???
Soooo needless to say I've eaten some Free day things!!!....uh oooops!
Any who ... Hope all are well ...
& we'll see if we can post something about pics or stats NEXT WEEK... I'll have at least been back at things more than a few days!!!

Geeeess how does life get like this?? :P

25 things you say?...

I never thought the process of reading about others & thinking about "telling" 25 things that make me ..Well- ME - could be so damn hard... I've found myself reaching back into my past & examining thing & thoughts & emotions that I generally like to keep safely "put away".. I've ran thru things in my head & then analyzed them to bits as to just how much I'm willing to share... So I guess that would have to be my number 1 eh?

1. I have always had a tendency to analyze things pretty much into oblivion...Ask me a simple question like "IS the sky Blue?" & I'll come back with a hundred questions about variables... Like at what time... from what vantage point, on a sunny day or cloudy... bla bla bla.. & all the while wondering- why are you asking me this?? Do you really want to know or are you trying to see if I do or don't know? Is my answer goin to affect how you think about me or are you trying to trick me into something by asking a simple question... Yea it's noisy & confusing in here sometimes..& I'm definitely NOT a linear thinker!

2.I think I learned this as a survival technique with a father who could be a Jeckle & Hyde - the most fun, outgoing person -telling us he loved us one minute & then the next flying into a horrible rage ... You learn to figure out how to keep the peace ask enough questions to find out what is going to keep someone happy.. & keep your self safe..

3.People who meet my mom say she is an amazing hostess , will make you whatever you wish, feed you , give you wonderful things to drink .. ect ..but that they can never really tell whether she "likes" them or not.. - to those that I trust I have said frankly - I, to this day don't know either..she's always been kinda distant..

4. One of my worst fears is that these characteristics of my parents are within me & that I will inflict them on my kids who I love more than life..

5.I have a sister who I am closer to than anyone...We have gone thru things together that no one else will understand.. but we also can drive each other crazy.. Badly-
we once had a fight in a walk-in closet that almost took out walls left us both with not so minor injuries & poor Jamie ( who had come to live with us)& who has never had siblings just shaking his head when he came home & found out it started over clothes! ( there were WAY deeper issues but that's what started it ~lol ) & to this day we joke about "going to the closet" if you have ever watched the Kratt Brothers or a show called Zaboomafoo you'll get it!

6. As a teenager I took what I though were my mothers "pain pills" because I sometimes got bad headaches ... I thought I went to sleep.. But someone apparently woke me & I apparently got up & tried to dye my hair black - with a shoe polish dabber!
I had also apparently told my younger sister & her friend they were good for headaches or whatever- & they who were already into experimenting with stuff ( I didn't know..) took them to school... with almost disastrous results - needless to say they got caught... & Horrible repercussions fomr my Dad.. Word to the wise- "Halcion" ( which is actually a bezodiazapine - sleeping pill can & will cause strange reactions- I don't advise ever taking it!!

7. I being the older sister still feel resposible for my sister .. She is Bi-polar & doing really amazing & well but I always have felt I should have done more thru the years to keep her 'safe' & 'well' - some times it is exhausting..

8. I have always described my sister as younger, thinner & prettier than me -I think there has always been some self image issues where she is concerned..

9. At times we have been told we look a like ..We once even convinced a group of guys that we were twins & were only 4 minutes apart - not 4 years!


10.I enjoyed school - in elementary school I was in a group of a half a dozen kids that kept getting put in an "enrichment program" - sorta set us apart for the "mainstream" kids early on... In junior high & senior high I became a chameleon & prided myself on being able to wander into any group _ but never felt I really belonged in any of them that they didn't really know who I was anyways..

11. Where I went to high school we neede a minimum of 13 courses/ credits to Graduate- I ended up taking 16 - yea weirdo! ~lol

12. I've always enjoyed acting & theater... I once got asked to fill in & play a part even tho the rest of the group had been together for months already- Me being me & "fitting in" where ever I fall- I ended up making some a amazing friends


13.I went to the WRONG lecture hall & class of a Physics course at University for half the term before I had to hand in a paper & found out - I realized WHY I'd been struggling SO hard - it was a second yr course !! I was SOOOO embarrassed I just dropped out of the class completely..

14.My parents told me for yrs I must have horse shoes up my Butt...looking back on some of the things I came thru unscathed.. I have to agree...I was alway pretty naive..I once saw a "boy" at a phone booth crying.. & I went & talked him out of hurting himself with the Knife he had & not going into the Bar & doing anything or saying anything to the Girlfriend he'd just been dumped by... No... I took him home
let him sleep over in my car ( gee silly parents didn';t want a strange man in the house) & then took him to the Bus stop to get back to his home which was in Hope almost 2hrs away... We stayed in contact for yrs after.. But how it might have gone.. I shudder to think..

15. Carrying on on this theme...I seem to have this knack for having people "open up & talk to me" even complete strangers.. & I was told by my ex that I collect "lost people" the way some collect "lost animals" - he thought that was a bad thing.. I should have clued in then we were too different.

16. I believe in ghosts, spirits whatever you call them & I have seen them more than once..
again my ex thought me even mentioning that sorta thing was "stupid & whacked"... More things I should have payed attention to..

17. I also believe in past lives... & NO I don't think I was Cleopatra!... But there are so many thing that I have seen, thought, or done --- that have no other explanation... I have for year been caught reaching down to "pull up my skirts" (as in Long long ones) as I go up stairs...& I don't know I'm doing it.. Jamie teases me - especially 'cause it looks VERY funny when I'm wearing shorts!


18.I think I married my ex because he was the first boy friend I'd had that my parents really liked... Not because he was"right" for me- yea still desperately trying to please them & do something they might be proud of..

19. When I finally left.. First no one could believe it.. ( that whole keep a good outer face thing I'd learned growing up-) & second- through a series of horrible events my parents got mad at ME & took his side completely .. I think that way my Dad didn't lose the "son he never had" - YES they are VERY alike!

20. That period in my life was the darkest ever- I didn't speak to my parents for months.. & that Christmas My ex took My children to My parents house to have dinner & spend time with MY whole extended family... & my sister & I were NOT invited.
I think a part of me died then..& grieved my parents as if they were dead- in a sense they were to me..

21. It was my Grandma -who I admire more than anyone in this world, who breached the distance & I began seeing my parents again.. If for no other reason for the kids. For me though the relationship is changed forever- I look on them as I would any other neighbor. -of course they can never admit any wrong doing or hurt they might have inflicted..& so again we don't talk about it & we keep up the outer face..

22.Jamie & I grew up in the on opposites sides of but none the less in same town & have been friends for yrs here at the hospital... & I always have been teased & amused because I'd always run to hug him when he came to my ward. It took a heartfelt talk where he shared the fact that his mother had just been diagnosed with Lou Gherigs ( basically a death sentance) & me sharing that I wasn't happy in my marriage & had decided to leave for us to talk about "what was really important in life" .. We realized we'd both had "feelings" about each other - but had always been to damn polite to push - DUH! More talks later we realized why we'd always felt "better" when we were together why I never wanted to break away from those hugs- we were the "other Half" of one another,that we'd been looking for & didn't think existed.

23.Being In love with him has been the most wonderful, challenging thing I've ever done- the Gods have extracted a pretty high price to be with my Soul mate - but it's worth it

24.His ex has on more than one occasion done truly horrific things..& even gone so far as to involve & hurt ALL the kids to the point that I wished her dead & now the kids don't even see each other... She is an angry, selfish woman & unfortunately unwell mentally.Thru some of these episodes I lost chunks of my hair & almost my sanity - but in the end thus far Jamie & I are still together, still ridiculously happy & carrying on with life..

25. Back to the beginning.. I once met a boy, he had beautiful dark hair & I remember the most amazing ice blue eye..I remember I had just gotten a swing set for my 5th birthday..& he was visiting a neighbor of mine
I remember mostly because he was the first boy to ever Kiss me ( guess he really liked the swing set! )
& Yes...It came out thru one of those many talk ..all those years ago..It was Jamie :D


OK that was Really too damn long... see why it took me days to write it???

Yea, maybe I shoulda just told you I pick my nose..- woulda been easier!! thk

What I've learned..

So I did go see the nutritionist/trainer on Friday as I said..& we're going to try a route of whole foods for a month & see how that works for my system combined with a a changed up workout routine that includes some cardio every day _ but Not HIIT( pretty much all on the recumbent bike until my stupid foot has a chance to heal up a bit better).
I guess I learned I need to listen to my body a little bit closer to find what will really work for Me.
At this point I'm willing to try something new since I've done BFL by the book & all sorts of other "programs" over the yrs never managing to see the results I want.
So we'll see how this works..

Then on the weekend I went camping with my daughters Guide group IN THE POURING RAIN!! & I learned that regardless of what list of supplies you send home -parents seem to send these kids VERY unprepared for bad weather. We knew it was going to be wet & cold!
Thank God I'm notorious for over packing- I spent yesterday morning gathering back toques, mitts, fleece pants & tops while trying to dimantle tents & tarps in the Pouring rain!


All in all it really was an enjoyable time - we had good group of girls & the leader who'd asked me to come with them is a friend of mine so we got along great-so the girls had 2 very likeminded leaders in charge of all our activities...
The other camp of girls ( we had to do it on 2 sites due to the number of girls) wellll ... The other group seemed ummm not to be running a smoothly & the leader over there a few times came wandering over saying she wanted to go Home! ~lol

I don't know if it is that Susan & I have the same parenting style or that we're both bossy nurses but we had no problems & even when we got absolutely soaked our girls were happy seemed to have learned lots & had a good time :D

The only down fall of the whole thing is that the cold I've been fighting off finally Got me... I'm sick... coughing up yuck & have no voice... guess I've learned that actually sleeping is necessary for health! ~lol

Ok, ok already.. tee hee..

About my world....

So yes I have been busy.. & blog filler is just NOT gonna do it... & those of you I talk to on Messenger.. Well I'm sorry - my days seem to have been filled up& I barely seem to have time to catch up on Blogs in the evening after everyone's in bed :P
This little guys is MOST of the reason... :D



He's awfully Cute but kinda time consuming... But I love him to absolute bits! :D & I've missed my sister so much while she's been away In Alberta ( the next Province over ) that I feel guilty every time I wanna go anywhere.. Especially the gym! I just feel bad leaving her & squawking boy - running off going Ta- ta.. I'm off to do something fun! ;P SOooo We've been getting to spend some "sister" time together :D Kinda nice ...


So workouts have been erratic this past week or so .. & eating over the weekend..welllll here's a few pics so you can see us all dressed up - I'm putting in the first one as a warning NOT to sit out with t-shirts on & NO sunscreen- YEP that's a lovely FARMER TAN I'm sportin'! akkkk!& the look on my face is saying to Jamie NO.. With YOU - YOU get in the pic- We have VERY few pics of the both of us! -- & Hanging with Stef made me realize that they are really nice to have :)

Ummmm Jamie & I kinda went out on Fri eve to a wine a seafood festival as some of you know ...It was FANTASTIC!!





yes you all might think I have a REAL thing about seafood.. Well I do love it ..But it's just funny that it's come up a few times in the past month or so! This was a fund raiser that we've gone to with my parents & friends & family for the past several yrs .... Very nice indeed - but VERY "free day"!

So lots going on needless to say...

On a Fitness note I'm kind excited..I have an appt today to see the nutritionalist/Trainer Girl at my gym & we're gonna see if there is anything else I can be doing or trying .. I'm always up for more input! & I'm having more & more trouble working AROUND my stupid foot injury -in fact I'm thinking of seeing about being fitted for orthotics as the whole foot is aching now... Damn I hate getting old! ~lol~