Exhausted...

This truly has been the week from hell.. First Me sick then Jess & Jamie... & of course my worst fear was that Steven would be next ..
So I postponed any birthday plans for him friends or family ( We always do his the week after the holiday weekend - where his b-day usually is.)

Today he was fine in the AM- so off we went for FUN day - not "Sports Day" - we don't do "competitive" any more now folks things are all "PC" now doncha know!~
Any who .. Got home at noon Jess had gone for the half day they have on Fridays as she felt ok..
Steven was still feeling good & Mommy feeling guilty for canceling all B-day plans took us down to Vancouver to Science World for a fun play afternoon. :D

Jamie was just coming to meet us there at 5 when it closed & we were gonna go for dinner when the boy announces "his tummy hurts"...AKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!

Yep ... Tried to head home .. Made it not even part way & had to pull over.. Pooor baby boy..back in the car with a bag.. ( not glamorous but works)
then raced the rest.. & Now at 1 AM he's finally sleeping on the couch & I'm hoping the worst is over,,, Gods I'm tired.
This Norwalk virus is horrible... I really hope none of you have to suffer through this...

I thought I'd take a break & come see how everyone's doin.. & I've decided rather quickly -I'm too exhausted to read or comment properly so I'm gonna go lie down.. I never did sleep the other day so my sleep quota for the week is NOT good.

Maybe tomorrow..
Take care all..

Be careful what you wish for..

Well in a warped sorta way I think I've brought this all on myself... Remember I was bemoaning the fact that Jamie was losing weight because He was sick with the flu??

Yea well that was a BAD idea! Monday was the Stat holiday for us up here & I was set to work it... Woke up feelin kinda iffy but thought it was just that I hadn't eaten since early the eve before... Well by Mid morn that was NOT the case! OH man I have never been that sick in all my life!! I'll spare you the details cause I know not everyone in like those of us in the medical profession & finds THAT sort of thing "interesting" ... or even mildly "funny" . Well at least in a very pathetic way looking back objectively after the fact! - I put off calling in sick until the last possible time..Since it WAS a Stat &that is GOOD $$ you know! ~lol.... Yea nice very quick phone call from the bathroom floor!! GOOD grief how ridiculous is that ?? Like I said...Funny AFTER the fact!

Any who so needless to say yesterday was pretty much a write off as well - spent eating gravol & working my way back up from water to Gatoraid to toast.. whoo hoo!

Today I actually felt pretty ok... So I hit the gym ..& haven't spent the whole day trying to "hold down" the couch! I actually got the house in some sort of order & a bit of laundry done- but I have yet to catch up on you all so I hope you're all well... Hopefully tomorrow ...

Gotta say- I'm glad we keep telling each other this fitness thing is FOR LIFE - cause at the rate things in my world keep getting off track-- It's gonna take me that long to ever get a solid 12 weeks in a row done again! ~LOL..
OH well ... I'm wandering along doing my new program "twist" & we'll see where I am come the end of June regardless..

But umm hey- I did lose wt this week... Just NOT a fun or recommended way to do it!

What a week..

Well my sis is gone .. That was a whirl wind adventure of getting her to the plane... Baby & all! & after that - I've had a kick ass week at the Gym & with awesome eating ...But I feel guiltily as He##... As my poor darling Jamie has had a horrible bout of the flu...ALL week it's been absolutely horrid... He's had a terrible time off it & still isn't well.. He's had unreal fevers & CAN"T eat ....I wish!! ~lol..
I was all psyched to take pics when I got home from the Gym yesterday.. I was feeling all happy & fit -- but I got home to my Jamie out trying to mow the back 40 as we call it... & he was SPACE cadet..!!
So I took over & proceeded to do work out there until I had to go get kids..& then with the kids ( that were out at noon) until we took them for a Treat LUNCH/Dinner at 4:00- after we were done~! SoOOOOO No pics...

& then today Steven turned 8.... My little baby boy is 8 ,,,, how did that happen???
Soooo needless to say I've eaten some Free day things!!!....uh oooops!
Any who ... Hope all are well ...
& we'll see if we can post something about pics or stats NEXT WEEK... I'll have at least been back at things more than a few days!!!

Geeeess how does life get like this?? :P

25 things you say?...

I never thought the process of reading about others & thinking about "telling" 25 things that make me ..Well- ME - could be so damn hard... I've found myself reaching back into my past & examining thing & thoughts & emotions that I generally like to keep safely "put away".. I've ran thru things in my head & then analyzed them to bits as to just how much I'm willing to share... So I guess that would have to be my number 1 eh?

1. I have always had a tendency to analyze things pretty much into oblivion...Ask me a simple question like "IS the sky Blue?" & I'll come back with a hundred questions about variables... Like at what time... from what vantage point, on a sunny day or cloudy... bla bla bla.. & all the while wondering- why are you asking me this?? Do you really want to know or are you trying to see if I do or don't know? Is my answer goin to affect how you think about me or are you trying to trick me into something by asking a simple question... Yea it's noisy & confusing in here sometimes..& I'm definitely NOT a linear thinker!

2.I think I learned this as a survival technique with a father who could be a Jeckle & Hyde - the most fun, outgoing person -telling us he loved us one minute & then the next flying into a horrible rage ... You learn to figure out how to keep the peace ask enough questions to find out what is going to keep someone happy.. & keep your self safe..

3.People who meet my mom say she is an amazing hostess , will make you whatever you wish, feed you , give you wonderful things to drink .. ect ..but that they can never really tell whether she "likes" them or not.. - to those that I trust I have said frankly - I, to this day don't know either..she's always been kinda distant..

4. One of my worst fears is that these characteristics of my parents are within me & that I will inflict them on my kids who I love more than life..

5.I have a sister who I am closer to than anyone...We have gone thru things together that no one else will understand.. but we also can drive each other crazy.. Badly-
we once had a fight in a walk-in closet that almost took out walls left us both with not so minor injuries & poor Jamie ( who had come to live with us)& who has never had siblings just shaking his head when he came home & found out it started over clothes! ( there were WAY deeper issues but that's what started it ~lol ) & to this day we joke about "going to the closet" if you have ever watched the Kratt Brothers or a show called Zaboomafoo you'll get it!

6. As a teenager I took what I though were my mothers "pain pills" because I sometimes got bad headaches ... I thought I went to sleep.. But someone apparently woke me & I apparently got up & tried to dye my hair black - with a shoe polish dabber!
I had also apparently told my younger sister & her friend they were good for headaches or whatever- & they who were already into experimenting with stuff ( I didn't know..) took them to school... with almost disastrous results - needless to say they got caught... & Horrible repercussions fomr my Dad.. Word to the wise- "Halcion" ( which is actually a bezodiazapine - sleeping pill can & will cause strange reactions- I don't advise ever taking it!!

7. I being the older sister still feel resposible for my sister .. She is Bi-polar & doing really amazing & well but I always have felt I should have done more thru the years to keep her 'safe' & 'well' - some times it is exhausting..

8. I have always described my sister as younger, thinner & prettier than me -I think there has always been some self image issues where she is concerned..

9. At times we have been told we look a like ..We once even convinced a group of guys that we were twins & were only 4 minutes apart - not 4 years!


10.I enjoyed school - in elementary school I was in a group of a half a dozen kids that kept getting put in an "enrichment program" - sorta set us apart for the "mainstream" kids early on... In junior high & senior high I became a chameleon & prided myself on being able to wander into any group _ but never felt I really belonged in any of them that they didn't really know who I was anyways..

11. Where I went to high school we neede a minimum of 13 courses/ credits to Graduate- I ended up taking 16 - yea weirdo! ~lol

12. I've always enjoyed acting & theater... I once got asked to fill in & play a part even tho the rest of the group had been together for months already- Me being me & "fitting in" where ever I fall- I ended up making some a amazing friends


13.I went to the WRONG lecture hall & class of a Physics course at University for half the term before I had to hand in a paper & found out - I realized WHY I'd been struggling SO hard - it was a second yr course !! I was SOOOO embarrassed I just dropped out of the class completely..

14.My parents told me for yrs I must have horse shoes up my Butt...looking back on some of the things I came thru unscathed.. I have to agree...I was alway pretty naive..I once saw a "boy" at a phone booth crying.. & I went & talked him out of hurting himself with the Knife he had & not going into the Bar & doing anything or saying anything to the Girlfriend he'd just been dumped by... No... I took him home
let him sleep over in my car ( gee silly parents didn';t want a strange man in the house) & then took him to the Bus stop to get back to his home which was in Hope almost 2hrs away... We stayed in contact for yrs after.. But how it might have gone.. I shudder to think..

15. Carrying on on this theme...I seem to have this knack for having people "open up & talk to me" even complete strangers.. & I was told by my ex that I collect "lost people" the way some collect "lost animals" - he thought that was a bad thing.. I should have clued in then we were too different.

16. I believe in ghosts, spirits whatever you call them & I have seen them more than once..
again my ex thought me even mentioning that sorta thing was "stupid & whacked"... More things I should have payed attention to..

17. I also believe in past lives... & NO I don't think I was Cleopatra!... But there are so many thing that I have seen, thought, or done --- that have no other explanation... I have for year been caught reaching down to "pull up my skirts" (as in Long long ones) as I go up stairs...& I don't know I'm doing it.. Jamie teases me - especially 'cause it looks VERY funny when I'm wearing shorts!


18.I think I married my ex because he was the first boy friend I'd had that my parents really liked... Not because he was"right" for me- yea still desperately trying to please them & do something they might be proud of..

19. When I finally left.. First no one could believe it.. ( that whole keep a good outer face thing I'd learned growing up-) & second- through a series of horrible events my parents got mad at ME & took his side completely .. I think that way my Dad didn't lose the "son he never had" - YES they are VERY alike!

20. That period in my life was the darkest ever- I didn't speak to my parents for months.. & that Christmas My ex took My children to My parents house to have dinner & spend time with MY whole extended family... & my sister & I were NOT invited.
I think a part of me died then..& grieved my parents as if they were dead- in a sense they were to me..

21. It was my Grandma -who I admire more than anyone in this world, who breached the distance & I began seeing my parents again.. If for no other reason for the kids. For me though the relationship is changed forever- I look on them as I would any other neighbor. -of course they can never admit any wrong doing or hurt they might have inflicted..& so again we don't talk about it & we keep up the outer face..

22.Jamie & I grew up in the on opposites sides of but none the less in same town & have been friends for yrs here at the hospital... & I always have been teased & amused because I'd always run to hug him when he came to my ward. It took a heartfelt talk where he shared the fact that his mother had just been diagnosed with Lou Gherigs ( basically a death sentance) & me sharing that I wasn't happy in my marriage & had decided to leave for us to talk about "what was really important in life" .. We realized we'd both had "feelings" about each other - but had always been to damn polite to push - DUH! More talks later we realized why we'd always felt "better" when we were together why I never wanted to break away from those hugs- we were the "other Half" of one another,that we'd been looking for & didn't think existed.

23.Being In love with him has been the most wonderful, challenging thing I've ever done- the Gods have extracted a pretty high price to be with my Soul mate - but it's worth it

24.His ex has on more than one occasion done truly horrific things..& even gone so far as to involve & hurt ALL the kids to the point that I wished her dead & now the kids don't even see each other... She is an angry, selfish woman & unfortunately unwell mentally.Thru some of these episodes I lost chunks of my hair & almost my sanity - but in the end thus far Jamie & I are still together, still ridiculously happy & carrying on with life..

25. Back to the beginning.. I once met a boy, he had beautiful dark hair & I remember the most amazing ice blue eye..I remember I had just gotten a swing set for my 5th birthday..& he was visiting a neighbor of mine
I remember mostly because he was the first boy to ever Kiss me ( guess he really liked the swing set! )
& Yes...It came out thru one of those many talk ..all those years ago..It was Jamie :D


OK that was Really too damn long... see why it took me days to write it???

Yea, maybe I shoulda just told you I pick my nose..- woulda been easier!! thk

What I've learned..

So I did go see the nutritionist/trainer on Friday as I said..& we're going to try a route of whole foods for a month & see how that works for my system combined with a a changed up workout routine that includes some cardio every day _ but Not HIIT( pretty much all on the recumbent bike until my stupid foot has a chance to heal up a bit better).
I guess I learned I need to listen to my body a little bit closer to find what will really work for Me.
At this point I'm willing to try something new since I've done BFL by the book & all sorts of other "programs" over the yrs never managing to see the results I want.
So we'll see how this works..

Then on the weekend I went camping with my daughters Guide group IN THE POURING RAIN!! & I learned that regardless of what list of supplies you send home -parents seem to send these kids VERY unprepared for bad weather. We knew it was going to be wet & cold!
Thank God I'm notorious for over packing- I spent yesterday morning gathering back toques, mitts, fleece pants & tops while trying to dimantle tents & tarps in the Pouring rain!


All in all it really was an enjoyable time - we had good group of girls & the leader who'd asked me to come with them is a friend of mine so we got along great-so the girls had 2 very likeminded leaders in charge of all our activities...
The other camp of girls ( we had to do it on 2 sites due to the number of girls) wellll ... The other group seemed ummm not to be running a smoothly & the leader over there a few times came wandering over saying she wanted to go Home! ~lol

I don't know if it is that Susan & I have the same parenting style or that we're both bossy nurses but we had no problems & even when we got absolutely soaked our girls were happy seemed to have learned lots & had a good time :D

The only down fall of the whole thing is that the cold I've been fighting off finally Got me... I'm sick... coughing up yuck & have no voice... guess I've learned that actually sleeping is necessary for health! ~lol

Ok, ok already.. tee hee..

About my world....

So yes I have been busy.. & blog filler is just NOT gonna do it... & those of you I talk to on Messenger.. Well I'm sorry - my days seem to have been filled up& I barely seem to have time to catch up on Blogs in the evening after everyone's in bed :P
This little guys is MOST of the reason... :D



He's awfully Cute but kinda time consuming... But I love him to absolute bits! :D & I've missed my sister so much while she's been away In Alberta ( the next Province over ) that I feel guilty every time I wanna go anywhere.. Especially the gym! I just feel bad leaving her & squawking boy - running off going Ta- ta.. I'm off to do something fun! ;P SOooo We've been getting to spend some "sister" time together :D Kinda nice ...


So workouts have been erratic this past week or so .. & eating over the weekend..welllll here's a few pics so you can see us all dressed up - I'm putting in the first one as a warning NOT to sit out with t-shirts on & NO sunscreen- YEP that's a lovely FARMER TAN I'm sportin'! akkkk!& the look on my face is saying to Jamie NO.. With YOU - YOU get in the pic- We have VERY few pics of the both of us! -- & Hanging with Stef made me realize that they are really nice to have :)

Ummmm Jamie & I kinda went out on Fri eve to a wine a seafood festival as some of you know ...It was FANTASTIC!!





yes you all might think I have a REAL thing about seafood.. Well I do love it ..But it's just funny that it's come up a few times in the past month or so! This was a fund raiser that we've gone to with my parents & friends & family for the past several yrs .... Very nice indeed - but VERY "free day"!

So lots going on needless to say...

On a Fitness note I'm kind excited..I have an appt today to see the nutritionalist/Trainer Girl at my gym & we're gonna see if there is anything else I can be doing or trying .. I'm always up for more input! & I'm having more & more trouble working AROUND my stupid foot injury -in fact I'm thinking of seeing about being fitted for orthotics as the whole foot is aching now... Damn I hate getting old! ~lol~

A little something..

I'm busy as all get out .. but wanted something new for you all to look at.. & this just struck me as rather.. interesting! curious to know how you all do!
My week is going well & as some of you know I've even managed to sneak off & get in some workouts! (YAY)

People Envy Your Compassion

You have a kind heart and an unusual empathy for all living creatures. You tend to absorb others' happiness and pain. People envy your compassion, and more importantly, the connections it helps you build. And compassionate as you are, you feel for them.

What Do People Envy About You?

And so the circle turns..

How quickly the focus can change... I don't know if I'm articulate enough to explain the profound way that fate has reminded me that life is a circle.. ( I think one day I'm gonna have to pay Karenna to ghost write my blogs to get the words out better ..)

Since friday - much has happened to change my focus.
My sister & my brand new nephew arrived here over the weekend & there is a real reminder that there is always a New life waiting in the wings, demanding attention & more than able to fill up the space in your heart ...& home!

My waking hours have been filled not with introspection & saddness for others...but a never-ending flurry of activity & noise- & a LOT of STUFF ( gees I forgot how much STUFF new babies need ~lol...)

& time.. they take up allllll your time - this from the woman who sorta didn't quite make it out the door to the gym this AM because spending time with a little person seems to have taken over my whole morning :) Not entirely a bad thing in the big picture I suppose..

So I'll make this quick ,as the boy is waking up from a brief nap... & we're maybe gonna head out for a walk in the sunshine... I'll just say thanks for all your thoughts...I'll have to catch up on your worlds a bit later..
Hope you're all well & continuing to enjoy the "good" momments that life brings

I am :D

Ok.. Big breath..

I'm gonna write this out .. Unfortunately it won't change a thing ..& really wonder if I'm just dragging everyone down into my funk by doing this.. I'm rarely one to write about to much of the 'serious" stuff in my world - because somewhere in my brain I have been taught to "keep those things to myself" that by blabbing about them I'm looking for "oh poor you" that is "selfish" or not "proper"..Great stuff the hard wiring from our upbringing eh?

Ok enough stalling- as I told Suze the other day on the phone when she had the misfortune to ask me "how things are" Do you really wanna know? For you in Blogland.. If not- wander off now - Go find something "cheery" to read!

In the past week in my world a series of things have happened.. One of the girls I work with who has a 5 yr old & has been trying since just told us a week ago that she's Pregnant... Well not anymore. I can't even imagine her pain...
The same day I learned that --I learned that one of the older ladies that works in our dietary ( you know those cute little bustling cheery round ladies) well I had seen her Wednesday serving out the dinner for our pts & apparently Thursday on her days off she had an aneurysm burst & by Friday she was gone.

then to top it off ... Some of you might remember me blogging about a friend of mine I call "Mother May " or "Auntie May".. She was diagnosed with Lung Cancer just mere months ago... Well I got a call from her son while I was at work Mon night & he told me she was in the Hospital & Not doing well- that they had to have her back in there just to manage her pain ; that they had found it was in her bones & they were checking to see if it had traveled to her brain.
So I called one of the other girls I work with & we set up plans to go in & see her
Wed AM.... Paul called me back Tues eve to say she had just died.
Yea just a bit much all at once....
I guess All I can say what has been expressed out here in Blogland by others in times like this.. Hugs your kids, your family & friends . & simply try to enjoy this precious gift we have of "life"

What to say..

Well it's been kinda a difficult week for me...some pretty heavy things goin on .. but I'm getting thru it.
That's why & posted the previous "joke" that my aunt had sent me... how very Ironic that I get told "I'm funny" & it's "my best post ever"..geees Am I really that boring the rest of the time ?
makes ya wonder...
any who here's this then... in keeping with Janel's video.. more people to watch dance! besides, it's on my Ipod & I like it

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A story we might all appreciate! .....Tee hee..

Dear Diary;

For my 40th Birthday this year, my husband (the dear) purchased a
week of personal training at the local gym for me.

Although I am still in great shape since my track and field days
some 25 years ago, I decided it would be a good idea to go ahead and
give it a try.

I called the gym and made my reservations with a personal trainer
named Damon, who identified himself as a 26-year-old aerobics
instructor and model for athletic clothing and swim wear. -(YUMM)

My husband seemed pleased with my enthusiasm to get started!

The gym encouraged me to keep a diary to chart my progress.


Monday;

Started my day at 6:00am. Tough to get out of bed, but found it was
well worth it when I arrived at the health club to find Damon
waiting for me.

He is something of a Greek god - with blond hair , seductive eyes
and a dazzling white smile. Woo Hoo!! Damon gave me a tour and
showed me the machines. He took my pulse after five minutes on
the treadmill and was alarmed that it was so fast, but I attribute
it to standing next to him in his gym top and bulging shorts.

I enjoyed watching the skillful way in which he conducted his
aerobics class after my workout today. Very inspiring. Damon was
encouraging as I did my sit-ups, although my gut was already aching
from holding it in the whole time he was around. This is going to be
a FANTASTIC week!!

Tuesday:

I drank a whole pot of coffee, but I finally made it out the door.
Damon made me lie on my back and push a heavy iron bar into
the air - then he put weights on it! My legs were a little wobbly on
the treadmill, but I made the full mile. Damon's rewarding smile made
it all worthwhile. I feel GREAT!! It's a whole new life for me.

Wednesday:

The only way I can brush my teeth is by lying the toothbrush on the
counter and moving my mouth back and forth over it. I believe I have
a hernia in both pectorals. Driving was OK as long as I didn't try
to steer or stop. I ran over the gym manager in the parking lot.
Damon was impatient with me, insisting that my screams bothered
other club members. His voice is a little too perky for this early
in the morning and when he scolds, he gets this nasally whine that
is VERY annoying. My chest hurt when I got on the treadmill, so
he put me on the stair monster. Why the hell would anyone invent a
machine to simulate an activity rendered obsolete by elevators?
Damon told me it would help me get in shape and enjoy life. He said
some other shit too.

Thursday:

Damon was waiting for me with his vampire-like teeth exposed as his
thin, cruel lips were pulled back in a full snarl. I couldn't help
being a half an hour late; it took me that long to tie my shoes.
Damon took me to work out with dumbbells. When he was not looking,
I ran and hid in the women's change room. He sent Cheryl to find me,
then, as punishment, put me on the rowing machine - which I sank.

Friday:

I hate that bastard Damon more than any human being has ever hated
any other human being in the history of the world. Stupid,
masochistic gym-jock. If there was a part of my body I could move
without unbearable pain, I would beat him with it. He wanted me to
work on my triceps. I don't have any triceps! And if you don't want
dents in the floor,don't hand me the *&%#(#&**!!@*@ barbells or anything
that weighs more than a sandwich. (Which I am sure you learned in the
sadist school you attended and graduated magna cum laude from.)The
treadmill flung me off and I landed on the nutrition advisor. Why
couldn't it have been someone big and soft, like an ice-cream salesman
or a fireman?

Saturday:

Damon left a message on my answering machine in his grating, whining
voice, wondering why I did not show up today. Just hearing him made
me want to smash the machine with my rolling pin. However, I lacked
the strength to even use the TV remote and ended up catching eleven
straight hours of the Weather Channel.

Sunday:

I'm having the Church van pick me up for services today so I can go
and thank GOD that this week is over. I will also pray that next
year my husband(the bastard) will choose a gift for me that is
fun -like a root canal or a pap smear!

No wonder!...

So I have the gall to "wonder" how I manage NOT to do well when we have nights like this!!!
Ok So this eve was a LITTLE over the top even for us! (lol~)-- friends of ours JUST got engaged & Jamie is going to be the best man . Not to mention that Daryll just found out that he's been accepted to the new job he applied for in a town that is 4-5 hours AWAY away from here & he starts NEXT week!!

So we kinda had a big "Congrats & going away Feast"....we all like to Cook so everyone was making SOMETHING ( thank God for having such a big kitchen! )..& we never did sit down -just ended up eating in waves...
Lets see ...
We had Lobster, Dungeoness Crab, King crab, prawns, shrimp, oysters, scallops...& wine we just bottled...OMG!!.. I wonder why we never got to the homemade Caesar salad!!

but I did make the cheese cake out of the EFL cook book!!!!
Bahahaha!! Oh yea - now THAT made it healthy Right??

Can I just title this - *yawn*?

This is gonna a be a fun day - I can tell already... I for some obscure reason I woke up at about 1:30 am & COULD NOT get back to sleep... I dunno maybe it was us going to bed earlier than usual & ummm well being VERY pleasantly exhausted when I did fall asleep at about 10:30-11:00 -- Tee hee ;P
Does this happen to anyone else that sometimes right after.. You fall asleep ...& then wake up a few hours later?? Or am I just weird?

Any who, after lying in bed staring at the ceiling I decide to get up & come down stairs...I started a loaf of bread , cleaned the whole big walk in pantry - mostly cause I got pissy about not being able to find ingredients for the damn bread & then proceeded to catch up on everyone's Blogs...Interesting to see the world of Blends Going UP & DOWN like a teeter totter...VERY nice to see there's more "GOOD" & UPS in people worlds happening right at this moment! :D
Yep this is what I'm doing at 3AM!! Oh yea & throw in snacking - now does that count as yesterday's last meal or today's first?? ~lol

So this morning I'm now staring at my handy bottle of Thermo- whatevers & trying to figure out just how many I'm gonna need to wake my sorry A$$ up enough to go Go GO to the gym!

Wish me luck..... :D

Weekends are dangerous..

Here it is Monday & I'm relieved.. Yea.... WHAT? You say...
Hmmmm well to explain -I'm more than just a little pissed at my self that I yet again let the whole weekend become a series of Free Day moments.
Someone please tell me WTH happens in my brain that says that eating well right up till dinner time means that everything after that is WHOO HOO PARTY time!?! I dunno!... I need to figure out the mental process that goes into this sorta thing if I ever really hope to see decent results- that is the absolute bottom line on this.

I know that this is a pattern I have when I have weekend days off.. Friday I can work-out, be totally ON with eating all day- but then if it's a day off.. Come the eve & we end up "socializing" which usually involves food & drink.. & If I'm off Sat too- well it's the same sorta equation! -Then the hard thing is then Sunday even when I go back to work- I can't seem to get out of the fog & be all gun ho about eating clean- I'd quite honestly hazard to guess that it's some sort of "food induced hangover!!!" cause often I don't really even drink that much if at all ( especially if I had drank the night before~lol) - just the damn rich food!

Now telling me to NOT be sociable isn't gonna work- I'm just not willing to give up everything all the time ..Jamie & I both enjoy cooking & entertaining too much & to be honest with my schedual- getting to relax & "kick back" with friends is an infrequent treat.

Sorry for blithering on about this ... I'm just trying so hard to stay focused & on track this "challenge" .. That feeling like I'm on that slippery slope to Apathy is actually scaring me... I really WANT to do well.. I WANT to really make some changes & look "different" - it's been too long since I've managed to really see anything remarkable ...

Gotta find a way to keep the "damage" to a minimum somehow! *sigh*

Missed YOU all..

Friday was a funny day in my world...our computer was offline for the WHOLE day ..& I realised how much I rely on being able to get on line, look up things or just catch up on the "goings on" in everyone's world - any time I want~ So I can't even imagine going away on an extended vaction-I'd MISS you all too much ~lol
Anywho had a great day...busy, busy since kids have a half day of Fridays & my workout time is shortened -No lollygaging for me! & then we had dentist appointments as well to fit into our timeline & shopping & baseball practice..& on & ON it goes _ oh yea somewhere in there I have to make dinner too!
So it was busy but not so busy that I didn't go find the scale at the gym...
I'm down to 137 :D Yay ME~ So it's nice to find that working at this has Happy resutls!~

Keep up the PMA gang~

Good day!....

Well gang, here we are into week 2 of the Bikini challenge & I'm feeling GOOOOD today! Even after a weekend of eating ...ummm, well ..ah ,bithday food LOL ( I think I had more Pizza over this weekend than I've had in months- simply 'cause it was quick, easy & well frankly portable!! ) I'm think &(HOPE) I'm gonna be down again on weight by the end of the week!

I'm attributing it to "trying" to do T's diet for most of last week & so far all of this one... ( I'm doing a few substitutions - but tracking things on FITDAY) TO be honest this is the first time since last Spring that I've REALLY honestly been eating this clean. Thru the fall & winter,even when I waws eating "good" I got into a habit of telling myself that a low fat chewy granola bar was a good carb choice.... or that whatever everyone else was eating was .."close enough". Not to metion that more often than not my Free day turned into a Free Weekend with WAY too much partaking! ;P ( damn you Stef for telling me just HOW many grams of sugar are in a Vodka Ice!! ~lol)

Anywho this week, I've had my momments where I've been HUNGRY as Jess said...not fun! & gotten pretty damn sick of seeing spinache & frikkin' brocoli at a few points...( shoulda heard me muttering under my breath around work LAST night! ) but doing this even just for the days I work .. I think is doing me good.. I have a feeling if I tried to do this 24/7 I'd turn into a bloody basket case ! I really don't know how Teresa or any one can do this day in & day out for days , weeks, even months on end!! ITS BORING!! bahaha!

Other than obsessing about FOOD I've had a pretty good week been really hitting things hard with my workouts --& really enjoying chatting with Karenna ,Christie,Deb, Lisa & Co in the mornings ( although I'm gonna have to put a time limit on that or do it AFTER I go to the gym - cause otherwise I'm running out of day somehow before I know it! Tee hee! )

I also spoke a couple times today to Suzanne, who I've been worrying about & she's doing ok - they're ruling all the Yucky things out & hopefully it will turn out to be something fairly straightforward to deal with .. but that's her story to tell when the time comes .. In the mean time I'm just glad our dear Blend is doin ok & am once again reminded just how thankful I myself am for all of you out there-- & all the support that we give & get from one another!


Happy Wedsday ALL

**BIG HUGS**

What did I do all Weekend you ask???

Well it was a whirlwind... being that my schedual always changes & I work 3 days on then 3 days off... weekends are a REAL premium! This weekend we had friends to see before they leave to work away for a YEAR .. a soccer windup party & FINALLY my darling Daughter's Birthday PARTIES...Yes 2...you have to have the family one too ya know!

Here's some pics from the girls party ... we made it a whole "Men IN Black" Theme party starting with invitations in manila envelopes with TOP SECRET on them & invitations that had to be read using a mirror ( ya shoulda seen me trying to write THAT ~lol) When the girls got to the house - Jamie & I, who were dressed head to toe in black with sunglasses on, welcomed them to "Headquarters" & handed them their OWN "uniform" a G.I.B. t- shirt Jess & I had made up with Hot pink lettering on the backs (Girls In Black instead of MEN)
We did pizza & watched the M.I.B. movie & them took them to the local Mall for their "Training Assignment" which was a series of tasks in the Mall..( finding & buying sunglasses at the dollar store .. finding Quotes in the GNC store ect... They also had to take polaroid pictures of anyone they thought MIGHT be a possible ALIEN... Tee hee Now that was Fun! -- & the stir it caused in the Mall was Hilarious! Yep- IT was a BLAST they all had such a great time.. it was well worth all the effort & insanity!

Well THAT was quite the day!

So I can honestly say .. it's been a busy day but a FANTATIC one!

Got up this am & started getting ready for the gym ..checked in on my Messengers..Yes I have 2 runnng right now which may yet cause my poor little dinosaur
of a computer to give up & Die!
- But hey for now it's worth it! I got to "talk" to Goddessa & Deb which was a great pep inducer!! WHHHOOO HOOO! GO Bikini Challenge Girls! :D
& so off to the gym I went for a WHACK of cardio ..Almost an hour including a HIIT in the middle just for fun! ( geees those make me wanna barf some times!!! - but it's a good barf feeling right? ~lol - because then I know that I'm doing it right & working real hard --right?? ;)

Then back home to find my Dad cutting down the last of the nasty blackbery brambles that are out the back of our yard ( YAY dad!!!) Managed to get some chicken in the oven while I chatted with him... all the while just wanting to climb into a HOT shower! *sigh* Oh well finally he left & after a now much too short shower it was pack up for work & off to the dentist!!!

Oh fun!!! :P NO really, actually it was kinda awesome..For starters- NO cavities Yay me! & second the CDA there is the wife of one of my kids teachers so we got to talking..( ok she talked - I mummbled ~lol~). good to catch up on all the the gossip! ( tee hee) & then the biggest treat was in our talking about my rushed day & how I came to show up with soaking we hair... She says "so I'm guessing with all the fitness stuff You're an instructor as well" ...

UMMMMM no!- just a nurse.. was my response.. to which she sorta shruged & said "Oh ... I just thought from talking to you before & all that you knew..& well You just LOOK like one"

Talk about making my day!!!

OH.. & did I mention that I'm back down to 138?? I weighed at the gym ... this Am - So I guess the "bloat" is leaving... another BIG YAY!
.. & now I'm at work eating chicken & "grass" as my co worker like to tease me when I'm eating LOTS of veggies...mostly raw!! lol

Yep HAPPPY girl today... :D

OK at the request of a few of you...

HOW TO SPEAK ABOUT MEN AND BE POLITICALLY CORRECT:

1. He does not have a "BEER GUT" - He has developed a "LIQUID GRAIN
STORAGE
FACILITY."

2. He is not a "BAD DANCER" - he is "OVERLY CAUCASIAN."

3. He does not "GET LOST ALL THE TIME" - He "INVESTIGATES ALTERNATIVE
DESTINATIONS."

4. He is not "BALDING" - He is in "FOLLICLE REGRESSION."

5. He is not a "CRADLE ROBBER" - He prefers "GENERATIONAL DIFFERENTIAL
RELATIONSHIPS."

6. He does not get "FALLING DOWN DRUNK" - He becomes "ACCIDENTALLY
HORIZONTAL."

7. He does not act like a "TOTAL ASS" - He develops a case of
"RECTAL-CRANIAL INVERSION."

8. He is not a "MALE CHAUVINIST PIG" - he has "SWINE EMPATHY."

9. He is not afraid of "COMMITMENT" - He is "RELATIONSHIP CHALLENGED."

10. He is not "HORNY" - He is "SEXUALLY FOCUSED."

11. Its not his "CRACK" you see hanging out of his pants - It's "REAR
CLEAVAGE."

My favourite is #7.

Some thoughts for the New week..

HOW TO SPEAK ABOUT WOMEN AND BE POLITICALLY CORRECT:

1. She is not a "BABE" or a "CHICK"- She is a "BREASTED AMERICAN."

2. She is not a "SCREAMER" or a "MOANER"- She is "VOCALLY APPRECIATIVE."

3. She is not "EASY" - She is "HORIZONTALLY ACCESSIBLE."

4. She is not a "DUMB BLONDE" - She is a "LIGHT-HAIRED DETOUR OFF THE
INFORMATION SUPERHIGHWAY."

5. She has not "BEEN AROUND" - She is a "PREVIOUSLY-ENJOYED COMPANION."

6. She is not an "AIRHEAD" - She is "REALITY IMPAIRED."

7. She does not get "DRUNK" or "TIPSY" - She gets "CHEMICALLY
INCONVENIENCED."

8. She does not have "BREAST IMPLANTS" - She is "MEDICALLY ENHANCED."

9. She does not "NAG" you - She becomes "VERBALLY REPETITIVE."

10. She is not a "TRAMP" - She is "SEXUALLY EXTROVERTED."

11. She does not have "MAJOR LEAGUE HOOTERS" - She is "PECTORALLY
SUPERIOR."

12. She is not a "TWO-BIT HOOKER" - She is a "LOW COST PROVIDER."


well there ya go hope you enjoy them as much as I did! :P