Well ...I'll start off by saying HAPPY THANKSGIVING to all my friends south of the border! Hope you're all nice & full by now! :) LOL!...
Today was a kinda interesting day.. went to the Gym with the idea to talk to the owner /trainer there about splitting up my upper body routine.. well he's ALL gung ho on me getting into the serious training-!!! LOL!- Thinks if I decided to apply myself I have the right genetics in his mind that I could go compete . Now on a Good day that's awesome incentive to work hard. Yay team...:)
But what is it about the stupid little voice of self doubt in my head that tells me that I don't have what it takes.. That I just don't have the capability for self discipline that is needed to do anything like that??....
-I dunno some days I have all the fire & incentive in the world.. & then something throws me off track & it seems SOOOO hard not to just be "like everyone else" ... well the average people.. you know co- workers & friends who still to this day don't "get" why I keep going back to the BFL program ! It's so flippin hard sometimes to do this alone. Don't get me wrong.. I'm not sitting here feeling sorry for myself -- just thinking- self analyzing if you will!
Mostly..I'm wondering about Bill Phillips & his "crossing the ABYSS"... I every time I get right into the program..I think I've crossed it -- I know what I should be doing.. I "get" how this works.. how the work outs & cardio & eating go together to produce results..
Flip !!-- After doing this off & on for 5 yrs & being subjected to body building info galore for 5 yrs before that ..I have ALL sorts of great information in this wee brain of mine!!!
-- want to know a good exercise for any given body part?? ..Hey just ask!
-- Wanna know about protein & carbs...I'm your girl!!!
-- creatine.. Supplements.. you name it..it's in here somewhere!
Now here's the kicker... WHY can't I stick with this the way I know I really need to , to achieve the stellar results that I know are possible..
Have I never really crossed this "Abyss?? "... have I been fooling myself??
Am I a wimp, a chicken or do I just need someone to hold my hand ..& drag me away when I'd rather eat crap! `LOL..
Again.. I dunno..
On that note I'd better get back to work -- that I DO KNOW ... ;)
take care All...
Thursday, November 24, 2005
Posted by Pamela at 6:44 PM
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Pamela....
Stop stealing my brain waves!!! LOL Oh my gosh I have the exact problem. I know exactly what to do..Mabye even too much! I could instruct someone all day long on how do lose weigh and keep it off successfully, but can I do it myself?? Nope! Wheres my fire??Oh its so frustrating. I need to make myself listen to me!!! I am with ya girl! All we can do is our best and try to find the drive again.
Self doubt - I think everyone has them. In Burn the Fat Feed the muscle Tom talks about goals - and for some reason I finally 'GOT' it. He says not sell yourself short. You should dream as big as you can. There is NOTHING you're not capable of doing - it's just a matter of doing the work. So now when I look at pictures of Maggie Diubaldo (My current 'goal model') Instead of telling myself ... I could never... I say YES I CAN! Yes YOU can.
besides - look around you, do you REALLY want to be 'average'?
Thanks for the words of support & wisdom all! ... I'm keepin at it!
Day by day.... :)
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